2 Years.....
Yesterday almost passed by without me realizing the date. It was about 11pm when I clicked that it was April 11th, and that on this date 2 years ago I experienced the greatest loss of my life, a loss that I am still grieving caused by a company that still affects me daily.
I have a lot to reflect on, a lot to be bitter about and a lot to miss...and some things I am thrilled to not have to deal with.
Will write more later. Chanta's Bitches is several weeks ahead in editing whereas Fucked & Bound is only one week ahead. With my shooting schedule next week I need to knock out a couple of videos before I can get all reminiscent on the last few years.
Take care,
Chanta
I have a lot to reflect on, a lot to be bitter about and a lot to miss...and some things I am thrilled to not have to deal with.
Will write more later. Chanta's Bitches is several weeks ahead in editing whereas Fucked & Bound is only one week ahead. With my shooting schedule next week I need to knock out a couple of videos before I can get all reminiscent on the last few years.
Take care,
Chanta
posted by Chanta Rose: Bondage Expert at 11:32 AM
3 Comments:
Having stumbled on your blog it interested me, having been in and out of similar business to you for a Very long time. I started in the eighties, but had a big set back like yours and having devised all the art work, scripts and hired most of the staff it hurts like hell when someone you trust takes it all away.
I left it all behind for a while, but I come up with original ideas and make connections others can't you have that knack too don't worry it will allows be there in some form. The people who rip you off are just sales men only as good as the last deal they stole.
It has brought you back and never lose sight of that or waste your time on revenge read "IF" the poem. knowing you can do it all again is the best feeling there is if you believe it. I did read you felt unsure about following up your ideas that is sad I know blows knock you, but it is a hell of a lot of fun when things work you come up with don't miss out on your best Idea.
You are no safety first person!
I can see than much. Anyway I hope you keep it up and keep pushing yourself the world needs Creators there are so many of the others.
Julius
Jus@juscom.co.uk
It's not so common to hear of anyone who can find solace in bitter memories. Perhaps you'd benefit from plainly letting go. Unless, of course, you can find it in you to channel the anger and bitterness constructively, empowering yourself to outdo the company that grieves you even today. I myself know of very few people who can do such a thing, but I know of no reason why you shouldn't be such a person.
You've more than hinted about this a few times. I wonder how and why it came to such a bitter conclusion but of course that's none of my or others business.
This business though - perhaps even more than most - can I guess get very nasty at times.
I wish you well in the future. Looking back has no gain for the emotions. Looking forward positively with enthusiasm is what will help the psyche.
What else I've read on this blog implies that that is what you are doing.
Good luck with your future. Only you can make it great.
B xx
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