Guilt Tripping into Donation Giving?

Some of you may remember my post a couple of months back about how I was ending my contributions to Environment California (which I did). They called me about a week ago, which I thought was strange as I am not longer a contributing member but of course I should have realized that my name and number would be kept on file forever, and even sold to other charities so that I receive a mountain of mail asking for contributions to other causes...but, this is a side rant, and not why I am posting.

So, the topic of this call was that EC are trying to raise money to help promote Barack Obama in those 4 states that really decide the election. They want the money so they can send people door to door in those states and try to get people on board to vote for Obama. When I receive a call like this (at 9pm no less) I usually hang up very quickly. Do not call me, and intrude on my life...that is what I think of these cold callers, etc, they are intrusive. The e-mails I can loive with, even the paper mail (even though I find it hugely wasteful) but to phone someone or worse, knock on their door is just wrong. Soo anyway, I immediately said I was not interested to which the caller responded "So, you don't care about the environment?" with a judging tone in her voice. At which point I hung up...but it really pissed me off.

I realize we have been guilt tripped into donating money to worthy causes for years by seeing images of Katrina, and the famines in Africa, etc....but it's different because you see such images and feel awful for those people and WANT to help in any way you can...not necessarily because of guilt from having comfort in your life.

I really don't see how this bitch expected a positive reaction from someone with her judging tone and asshole question that was designed to enrage...I have to wonder if it works on other people? After I hung up I just thought, 1. I would never support the intrusive act of knocking on people's doors and 2. I have given hundreds of dollars to this organisation while being unemployed and unpaid and now this cunt suggests I don't care? The only thing she succeeded in doing is that I will never give to them again, ever.

"Who's Sarah Palin?"

When these words came out of Harmony's mouth on set of http://www.chantasbitches.com the other day I almost fell over. We were shooting a classroom roleplay scenario where a slutty student (Harmony) overpowers her well dressed, prudish, milf looking teacher (Mya Nichole) and I suggested Harmony say "Why are you dressed like that, you look like Sarah Palin!", we started rolling and she began the sentence only to stop halfway and ask me who Sarah Palin is.

The scary thing is, Harmony is one of the most intelligent, level headed, well mannered and financially porn stars I have ever met (she is not ditzy at all) so for her not to know really makes me wonder about the rest of the girls. Eek!

Take care,
Chanta

Too Fucking Busy...

Need to find time to post about the great time I had in London (http://www.lamskintwospecial.com) and also moan a bit about my workload currently, and celebrate that I just did what I am fairly certain will be my final shoot in front of the camera (although I hate to post about that because if I change my mind then I become one of those girls who retires, then un-retires, etc). Also planning a trip to Australia with hubby...amazing that this may actually happen but he said yes to the dates to my Mum on the phone and a son-in-law should never lie to his wife's Mother LOL so I am holding him to it!!!

LAM Skin Two Weekend

So, I am currently in London. I arrive yesterday to have some "chill out" time and tomorrow the Skin Two expo begins which, this is year is being ran by Master Cosmic from the LAM (London Alternative Market). My workshops and demos are not until Sunday but I am sure I will be wandering around tomorrow before ducking off to Covent Garden for some "me" time later in the afternoon. I am on the hunt for gags. I am always on the hunt for gags. Finding good gags that fit females (models sized females) is like finding a needle in a haystack but when I do find them, I always find them in the UK.

I have been doing some serious soul searching of late. I have wanted to write about it, and then I have not. I feel a time of change is coming...for me. It is time to find the right people and get them running various sites at TF. My burn-out is beyond extreme at times, emotionally and physically. When your hands and wrists are in agony from rigging too much it may be time to find some people to do some of the rigging/directing for you LOL! Berlin will be back in Oakland next week directing a couple of scenes for http://www.captivemale.com which is always helpful.

Back to the soul searching. I think many things may have brought it on, but I keep coming back to...that I may have just seen one too many girls with the acne of a crystal meth user, one too many girls with a bad boyfriend or suitcase pimp, one too many girls that is getting fucked in the ass for a living but is too stupid to have health insurance (if you're reading this girls, you know who you are and yes, you are stupid), one too many girls that at the end of their "career" in adult are not well off financially, in their relationships or from an education point of view (ie. they don't know how to do anything else). Or maybe I've just had a bad bunch of girls lately....who knows, what I do know is developing such a moral conscience is probably not good for business. Respecting limits and safewords is a given, being nice to model is natural, feeling responsible for what they do with their cheque after they leave the studio is none of my business but the fact that so many waste it is playing on my mind of late.