Ugh, nothing quite sucks the life out of you like a couple of bad shoots. For the person writing the cheques (ie. me) it is even worse when you are not the one in those shoots because I am free talent.
I had Dragonlily out for a couple of days of shooting before she takes a year off from the industry and really wanted to get some good Dom scenes with her. She is awesome but of course, the Dom is only half of the equation. If the sub sucks then the shoot may also suck, it is very hard work for a Dom to be able to save a shoot alone. What's most annoying though is that I should have known. I had a lot of trouble booking talent due to the AVN show in Vegas so I decided to try a pretty local girl. Her application said she was very experienced and a pain slut but when I spoke with her on the phone I started to think that was perhaps not true. At the shoot she walks on to set with a wig. I HATE FUCKING WIGS! if you don't want to be recognized then don't do porn...not to mention the fact that the pics she applied with did not show a wig. Anyway, DL is here so I suck it up and we start to shoot...and this girl sucks. I am tying her loosely and shes saying it's too tight. We then find out she has never been tied up at all (um, remember she said she was experienced) and really can't take more than a ligh deer skin flogging (yeah, real pain slut). So we end the shoot 2 hours early. Honestly, when a shoot is shit and the footage is shit it really doesn;t matter if you shoot for 20 minutes or 4 hours...shit is shit.
This morning for Captive Male we had a new sub. Nice guy, no deoderant. I fucking hate that. I know his armpit smell is going to stay on my ahdns and my rope...so I switch to my crappy old rope!!!! The scene is going okay until the strapon. He warms himself up with a dildo and then I put him the loosest half crab tie ever and DL goes to work. We wait FOREVER to get the tip of our second smallest cock in him and he is making such a big deal out of it. Now look, I understand...I don't really like big hard things in my butt either but then I am not agreeing to do it by accepting a shoot where it has been made very clear this is not negotiable. I can see his face looking at me hoping I will say we can simulate or just end early, etc and I am really so sick of this shit with some of the male subs. As always, in a shoot with a sub that sucks I am trying everything I can to make it better. More lube, taking away any pain play, etc, etc and when I ask if there is anything more I can do he says "Ugh, I'm really uncomfortable, etc"...normally when i hear this I am able to bite my tongue. Today i did not. I replied "It's a bondage shoot, what did you expect?". Did I mention that the bondage was a loose wrist to ankles tie on a nice soft mattress??? Really, have I ever let any of the female subs have it that easy for anal? I think not.
This afternoon was Carmen. A girl I had a funny feeling about. I read Matt's write up of her over at the dark glob's Hogtied and could tell she must have hated the shoot. So when LA Direct recommended her for the shoot I was skeptical. I asked them to double check she was okay with girl/girl bondage, etc and they said it was all fine/ She shows up...and tells me she's booked as the Dom! Um, no. The look on her face when i describe the bondage to her says it all. This shoot is going to suck. To be fair, she is beautiful and gave it her best try but the fact is, had she known what the shoot was (as she should have) she would not have accepted it. We finished half way in.
So, all in all, for 4 DL shoots, the 3 above were shit, shit, shit....and that sucks, sucks, sucks.
Oh well, you win some, you lose some. I guess I just have to hope, in a years time she does return to the Twisted Factory to dominate some bitches for me!
take care,
Chanta
