Suitcase Pimp

Those two words pretty much sum up today. In porn, we are a community of "no bodies", unfortunately many of the people in it think they are "somebody".

Thyroid...or lack thereof

I am bad, very bad. I am what the doctors would call "non-compliant", what this basically means is that I do not take my prescribed medication correctly and I know it. My excuse? The very lame "I forget" which is actually true. What is also true is that even when I remember I rarelt take it correctly.

Not having a thyroid means taking my replacement hormone supplement every day, at the same time, on an empty stomach (for an hour). I have never been able to do that last part. I have to eat when I get up, even if it's something small. I also have to have a cup of tea with milk in it. Having dairy in your stomach completely makes the process of your body receiving the correct amount of hormone ineffective.

Now, I have never been good at taking daily meds, this is one of the many reasons I am not on the birth control pill but this is something my body needs, and the fact that in the last 3 months I have taken less than a third of what I am supposed is actually now starting to effect me a lot. Hubby pointed out to me today that I am sleeping between 11-14 hours a day. He's right, I am, and when I am not sleeping (like right now, after a 3 hour nap) I want to be. I could sleep all day and night and still feel drained.

I need a system. I also need to know if I am really doing any real damage to my body by being so careless. I don't do the same things at the same time every day. On 2 shoot days I am up at 6am. On other days I am so exhausted from the 2 shoot days I sleep in until 11am. Some days I take the ogs to the [ark first thing, other days it's the beach, other days I am travelling in Europe, etc. I am not making excuses now but when I try to think of something I do, every morning without fail, the only thing is peeing at around 6am when I wake up to pee. That's it. The rest of the time everything is different...but I need to start remembering to take this medication because I have a feeling this "non-compliance" of mine could actually kill me.

HD and Me? I don't think so!

For the past week or so, we have been running tests with a HD camera over at the Factory and it looks like we have found the one we like...so this means, yes, http://www.twistedfactory.com is moving with the times adn upgrading to HD. I'll be blunt, what this means for me is a huge clusterfuck. Longer export times, longer encoding times, way longer upload times, etc. Gone are the days of being able to throw together an update the day before it's supposed to go live. This is pretty intimidating because I run 3 sites, and, as a rule that means 1 site, every week cuts it close to the update not being ready on time (but we've never missed one yet, and we've never been late). So why is 1 site the main stresser each week? Simple, for 1 person to run 3 siites is ridiculous, the workload is simply too much and with HD, it's not that the workload will increase, it's just that some things will take longer.

The other big change will be on http://www.chantasbitches.com where you will NOT be seeing me in HD. No, no, no way. I turned 30, and gained 30 lbs. I am close to being one of those girls that everyone is like "wow, is she still doing this, she's getting kind of old, fat, ugly, etc, etc". The difference is, those girls are still performing because they NEED to. That is, they have no money. Think of everyone you know and think of how many of them could have afforded to live well, completely unpaid for 3 years? People that can do that (as I did) have made some sensible decisions financially in their lives. Decisions I made when I was 19 and 20 were a total life saver at 27 when I lost my job, was illegal and had cancer, those same decisions still help me now at 30 when I pay myself a modest salary....but I could easily go another 3 years or more completely unpaid if I had to...without liquidating assets.

So, when you're in a situation like mine, generally you want to leave the "in front of the camera" part of the job behind when you're young and fresh and thin and beautiful. I could have pulled that off around 28, maybe 29. I'm a little behind at 30 but hey, I wanted to get a nice backlog of shoots (in standard definition!) to spread out on CB for the next year or so. Some members will miss me, some will not, I have trained some great Domina's to take my place so the bitches will continue to be slapped around and strapon fucked hard as they should be LOL!

And you never know, I need my fix of slapping bitches from time to time, so I may make some POV apprearances, the kind where you do not see my face body, and I don't have to keep wasting money and time on doing my make up, having my nails done and my hair highlighted.

Take care,
Chanta

Just Ramblings...

It's been a while since I posted and that is really the only reason I am LOL! No ranting on US Immigration today LOL, as just last week I received my 10 year greencard...WooHoo!!!! I had to wait 5 months for it, on the USCIS it says the wait is 7-9 month so I didn't do too badly, and hopefully, with this valuable piece of plastic, I will not get haulled in Secoondary Inspection when I enter the country from now on. I am still not allowed to vote of course, something which, on a civil rights level fills me with fury but I have somewhat calmed down about this also. The Reason? In this next election I probably would not vote anyhow. When the choice is between a cheerleader and an old man I feel the country loses either way...but then, nothing could be worse than who we have right now (biting me tongue just in case McCain couold be worse).

Had Berlin up at the Factory this week. Her rigging/directing skills still need a lot of work but are coming along nicely. When you start directing there is a difficult balance to strike between creating dynamic content but not working beyond your, or the subs ability. On the CM shoot with Vin Deacon, she attempted an upside down suspension with the boot cuffs. Everything she did was correct and she was using the best tools for this kind of suspension but I don't think she thought about how a suspension on a 200lb male is very different to that of a 100lb Lexi Belle when all of the weight is put on 2 ankles. Anyway, he blew out of it (which is fine) but the end result, of course is lost time (the sub needs to relax and take a break after such an intense experience) and that mean sless footage, which means short video. Things like this will become more obvious in time and I am sure Berlin will keep directing for TF for a long time to come...actually, she's up here again next week! Oh, and the first shoot she ever directed for us is the latest update over at http://www.captivemale.com

I am waiting for new rope to arrive which I am very excited about. As a rule, all of my rope is from http://www.twistedmonk.com, not only is his product superior but he is probably the most likeable person in the entire BDSM community in the entire world. When my book was first being released and did not yet have distribution there was many a store that turned their noses up at it, not Monk, not only did he put the book on his site he also took 20 copies to Shibaricon which created great buzz. But anyway, Monk has been out of my rope for some time so I have ordered a small set from Claire Adams company http://www.vintagerope.com/ to tide me over and can't wait to get my hands on it!

So, there is my rambling nonsense post for the week.