"Yes, they are a needy bunch"

Hahahahaha! I received this text today from one of my staff in regards to male talent.

It seems that, as they are all scared of me or something, that whenever they're worried that have upset me they contact him LOL, I am betting he wishes never having given his number out!!!

It really is bizarre how insecure and needy male talent can be. They let you know they're going to be in town and that they'd like to shoot and when they get a "no" they immediately assume that I'm mad at them. Um, no, it's just that we're not shooting that week, or maybe I've shot you a lot and am sick of you for now, or anything else, who knows. What I do know is do not spend my time sitting around thinking about male talent LOL.

So to any male talent out there that may be reading this: Grow Up!!! Seriously, stop being so PATHETIC. If I want to book you, I'll contact you or your agent. If no one in the industry wants to book you maybe you should find a new line of work.

Oh, and if you do manage to somehow get ahold of me on the phone and I am politely saying "IF" I book you, it means, no, I probably won;t be booking you so don;t nag me with emails and follow up calls telling me how you'd be the greatest Dom ever on F&B because you're into it in your real life. Dude, every guy who ever said that either sucked at it, or could not get/keep his dick hard...and you're forgetting 1 thing about being a great Dominant, there is an IQ prerequisite and it's doubtful you're in the 5% of male talent that make the grade.

Um, it's a bondage site....

that means hands need to be tied and restraints need to be inescapaable.

I suppose one of the challenges of using guest directors is having to explain the fucking obvious.

Naturalization

The paperwork collecting in life is never ending. From mortgage refinancing to taxes to homeland security LOL! Currently I am working on all 3 of these so the piles of copies of various bank statements, etc on my desk is a little out of control!

On March 7th, I become eligible for the naturalization process. As I have lived all over the world, I have seen how America, and therefore Americans are loathed. I have shared many of these opinions and I am sure I will continue to do so. What always amazes me about the US is that it's citizens are so patriotic, yet, their government treats them like crap!!! Most of my gripes come from the ridiculous cost of education and healthcare. I believe these to be human rights, not priveleges for the rich...or luxuries that will place people in debt for their entire lives.....but I digress.

Will I become a US citizen? Yes. I simply cannot live somewhere and pay taxes, etc and then not be permitted to vote. I also do not like that if I am a member of any advocacy groups, etc that can threaten my residency. Lastly, I do not want to have to reapply and therefore pay again, for a new greencard every 10 years.

So this decision is based on 3 things: 1. Convenience, 2. What I believe are my rights, and 3. The fact that I will not have to give up my Australian citizenship to do this.

I LOVE MATH!

Who would have thought? I have spent the last 6 hours reteaching myself geometry and algebra and I LOVE IT!!! I was always good at math...well, right up until calculus anyhow, and then my A's turned into D's but I have been petrified about having to study math. I have an exam on Saturday and have been really, really concerned. I still have a huge amount of studying to do, haven't yet revised traingles or quadratic equations but have been having so much fun figuring out formulas for things, especially geometry....I always loved geometry. Want to know how to find the perimeter of a running track? 2 x length + width x pi. Okay, that was super simple but it makes me so happy to do it! Learning is awesome...and while making porn can, and has been fun, too much of it just feels like brain rot...I guess I need some math with my bondage sex, hahahahaha!

Nailed It!

Today I had to give an 8-10 minute informative speech in class. Basically, this is the equivelent of our mid-term. I planned it all well, had greast hand outs and made hubby listen to me rehears like 10 times but it was all worth it because I received a PERFECT SCORE!!! 100/100! How awesome is that...I always knew I could talk for England LOL!

School Days

Last week, I started a college class. As it is not officially a semester, but rather "Winter School" only a small number of classes are available, and you're only permitted to take a maximum of 4 units (so basically, you can only take 1 class). In 12 days we knock out an entire semester's workload and exam and while it is the humanites and "easier" courses that are available it is certainly a lot of work. Hours of homework everyday leave little time for much else, especially with class from 9am-12:30pm every day...but it's amazing what you can get done when what you're doing is varied. My last few days have been as so:

Wake up, make thermos of tea, drive to class.
In class until 12:30pm.
Drive home via supermarket to pick up produce for dinner.
Once home, edit a video for TF, work on model bookings, etc.
Take the dog to the park.
Cook dinner (and I mean nice dinners like veal with roasted potatoes, carrots and a spinach salad).
Do homework for class
Go to bed only to wake up and do it all again!

It has been a long time since I leaped out of bed in the morning wanting to go wherever it is I am needed but this class is fun, and as I am doing very well in it, so a lot of my fears about college (being the oldest, the dumbest, etc) are disappearing and while I do not know if I will pursue a degree I am certainly loving that for the first time in a long time I feel as if my brain may not be made of liquid (making porn will make you feel that way).

Take care,
Chanta

Achievements of 2008

While, on the whole, I feel rather down about 2008, here are some of the things I am proud of:

1. Paying an additional $34,000 off of my mortgage. In many places in the US this would be a huge chunk of home ownership taken care of but I live in SF and that amount represents about 3% of my houses value LOL, still it lowered the principle by that much which is a great accomplishment.

2. Finding directors to help me at TF. I honestly believed all the good people (and a couple of crap ones) worked at Kink and that I would never, ever be able to find the help I needed. I am happy that there are talented people out there that can do what I need them to.

3. Shooting enough content to start a 4th site. While I'm proud of having 17 shoots shot, none of them are edited, so there's still a long way to go!

4. I finally received my permanent greencard. Woohoo!

5. I convinced hubby to actually use his vacation time and actually even a little extra. He/we spent over 4 weeks overseas (I spent much more, but this was purely vacation) and had time off over Xmas, that's like 5 and a half weeks which is unheard of for him!

So there you have it!

Chanta