Ticket Booked for FC2006

Yes, yes. I have booked the ticket to Tampa so there is no turning back now. I should have booked a little earlier and saved another $50 but oh well, at least it's booked now and I wasd able to reserve myself nice seats, etc. The only bad thing is that I don;t actually fly out of Tampa until 4pm on Monday the 14th...so I hope some other people also have to hang around instead of all having morning flights....suppose I could just chill by the pool while I wait to go to the airport.

I have a few small shoots while at the Con. Nothing huge, etc. I am deliberately not booked like crazy despite numerous offers....some of which were really crap I might add LOL! Seriously, producers; I hardly model at all anymore (never more than 4 shoots a month and that's a busy month) by my own choice, so when I do model it has to be worth my time....oh, and just because I was the first ever model fingered and group groped on Hogtied (5 years ago) does not mean that is on the menu for anyone and everyone now. Just to set the record straight, I have slept with those guys, I even married one of them (and love him very much)...so unless you're my husband and are sleeping with me you do not get to tie me up and stick your hands in me, not for any amount of money (the even funnier part is, the money I was offered was awful). Amazing what people assume.

I'm still nervous about seeing certain people, etc but Satine has just confirmed that she is coming with me so she'll be my sidekick...and maybe even my strength at parts along with others that have been so supportive like Madison Young...damn does she need a good bitch slapping now that I have my mojo back! I keep telling her too, she probably thinks I'm all talk and no action but we'll soon change that!

Oh, and this isn't what I'm waiting to write about BTW, that's still coming....soon, I promise.

take care,
Chanta
p.s. Pic is of Audrey leight tied up from a shoot a couple of weeks back, may be this weeks update on www.chantasbitches.com

Will write soon!

Seriously, I really, really do want to write about the fiasco of the last few days but I have to bite my tongue for just a little bit longer before letting loose....but trust me, this is going to be one of the rants of the century when I am ready to let loose.

Take care,
Chanta

Can't think of a Title for this entry!

Really can't, oh well.

Madison Young has been in town for the last couple of days and I have had the rare chance to spend some real quality time with her. 2 hour phone conversations, dinner at Herbivore, taking in a quick bondage show and having her as my demo model for a "Speed Bondage" class I did last Friday night. I really adore her. She is just such a level headed, nice person that was wise enough to involve herself in another career outside of bondage modeling in addition to it. I'm not knocking the porno, bondage world...far from it, I embrace it (as does she) but the fact is, I live in a bit of a bondage bubble...how funny, I put myself in bondage by immersing myself in this community LOL! It does make me consider law school again. Unfortunately that is all I seem to do when it comes to law school...consider it (not do it!).

Had a kick ass shoot with Audrey Leigh on Monday. The behind the scenes footage is so fucking funny and I really want to use it on the site but I have to make sure my crew are okay with that (videographer, photographer) as their voice and even body parts are in some of those clips. It means they will have to sign releases, 2257 forms and give me copies of their ID or I'm afraid this wonderful behind the scenes footage will never be seen by the public!

Okay, work to do...and I have pack for Toronto, ugh, 6am flight...yuck but at least it's direct. Still haven't booked FetishCon flight...I now have to wait to hear from Sirius Radio in NYC to see if they want me there around then, if so, then my flight would be different routing.

Take care,
Chanta
p.s. I will be interviewed on "Passion", a sexy, hot radio show bv Dr. Laurie Betito tonight between 7pm-8pm PST, you can tune into the show here: http://www.cjad.com

The way a bitch should look!

Julie Night's face says it all...and trust me, I dished out one hell of a beating with her...not to mention nasty nipple forceps with huge weights and a hard ass pounding...and she is all smiles. I love my bitches!

Take care,
Chanta

I am happy today!

I don't know why, I just am really, really, genuinely happy today!

I had a fun night last night, I got a tonne of book orders today, and I managed to recruit some brand new bitches (3 brand spanking new girls to be exact...all that I will get to break in) and speak to one of my favorite porn wives (Christina Carter), now I am capturing my very cool shoot with Audrey which I had a great time on...and I have decided to include some behind the scenes footage in the update just to show what a fucking blast it was!

So bizarre...for me to not be able to stop smiling...almost like the old Chanta that was always happy, I hope I can stay this way because it feels really good.

Amazon Sales!

WOW!!! I mean, I get excited when "Bondage for Sex" is in the top 10,000 sales on Amazon, after all, it is a niche book, it isn't going to sell like Harry Potter but yesterday my ranking rwas the best ever!!!!

Amazon.com Sales Rank: #8,353 in Books
Yesterday: #5,843 in Books

Yippee!

Hacked!!!

So...is it a good sign when someone signs up for your site for the sole purpose of listing the username/password on a free site? I think it is! It means your site is good! Not that I am promoting the activity (at all) and I have precautions in place to catch people that do it and there accounts are disabled asap...sorry guys, I have spent a lot of $$$ on this site and I'm all for people seeing the material, etc but you gotta pay for it.

Still, in a very odd way I am flattered!

Oh, and there'll be a bonus update tomorrow, another virgin to this porno world, the very cute Samantha.

Take care,
Chanta

Dizzy...

I am painting some props for my shoot tomorrow and think I have breathed in far too much spray paint or something...totally feel weird but to anyone that has even gotten high off of huffing gas, glue, paint, etc let me just say that I don't get it...I don't feel "high" (not that I would know what it felt like anyway), I feel dizzy, heavy headed and weird. I just don't get how this feeling is appealing to some people....

Why oh why?

Why, why, why? Why did I decide to go to FetishCon this year? On every level it seems like it was not such a good idea at all. Financially, I can think of better things to spend $1,000 on than a flight to Tampa, a hotel room and room service....$1,000, that's a shoot, that is me fucking a girl in the ass on http;//www.chantasbitches.com and I dare say I would have a lot more sun doing that than being at the Con. Emotionally...am I really ready to bump into people from CNE? Lew Reubens (who I might add is friend of mine) now runs Waterbondage....and yes, I am jealous. Matt Williams, who I miss dearly, but you just never know if he's going to be nice until you see him...I mean, I am petrified that he will laugh at me or something. This had been the worst 15 months of my life, I don't need to be laughed at by anyone for what happened at CNE. There are worse people that coule be there but I have my fingers, toes, arms, etc crossed that they are not going. Other people too, people that have profitted from my loss and I should have nothing at all against them but that doesn't mean I want to face them if that makes any sense. It's just too intense and for this I am a complete coward.

The reasons I did decide to go this year are:
a) Social. These cons were always tonnes of fun, everyone eats at the same restaurant, drinks at the same bar, etc and generally has a fantastic time.
b) Because I know I'll have to face certain people sometime and wanted to force it to happen.I figured 15 months was enough time for me to be in hiding.
c) to promote my book a littl more and teach a couple of classes.

To make matters worse the airfares SUCK. They keep changing, up and down and when they're down I keep not booking so now they're back up AND the layover on the way also SUCKS. Oh well, at least I am sharing my room with Satine and my lovely friend from the UK, the beautiful jasmine Sinclair is also attending!

Ugh...I will just try not to think of it for now.

Audrey's back!!!!!

It's been a long time since Audrey Leigh (aka Miss Audrey) has held a whip in her hand or ordered some girl to lick her ass/pussy/feet, etc...a long time. Many will remember her for helping me with Wiredpussy back when I ran the 3 sites at CNE. Remember all other webmasters then ran 1...and I ran 3, so that meant training a hot girl to a skill level where she could direct shoots for me while I worked on one of the others of the 3 sites....Audrey was my girl and I had hoped she may get the job as webmaster for the site but living so far away worked against her and she did not want to move into the city....anyway, the point is, she's back!

The body is still as fucking sexy as ever, the face still beautiful, the mind still cruel and the mouth still dirty...just the way I expect my Domme's to be! Audrey topped for 2 shoots for me last Monday in a great new nightclub location. The first with Penney Play was sexy as hell and ended with a nice ass fucking. Later in the day Hollie Steven's got the Audrey treatment which included hot wax, face slapping and lots of the nasty crop! It was shot in this great red room and will be next Friday's update on http://www.chantasbitches.com

I am going on and on...but it's just great to have her back....and even better, this coming Monday I get to make her my bitch, I can't wait!

take care,
Chanta

Lethargic...

I have been so tired and hungry for the past few days. Literally, I am always hungry and my body just wants to lay down all the time. I am not getting anywhere near enough work done as I should be...thankfully I have a lot already done so having a few "slow" days is okay. I wonder if my medication is off? This is the way i usually feel when I am weened off of my thyroid meds...except that I have been taking them so why is my body playing tricks on me?

It's around that time anyway. I will start to ween off of the leverthroid in the next couple of weeks in preparation for my body scan...basically I stop the leverthroid and start taking cytomel for 2-3 weeks and then nothing at all for 2 weeks and then I swallow a small "tracer"" dose of radiocative iodine and come back 2 days later and scan to see where the iodine has gone....big white spots are bad. They mean a tumor or cancerous lymph node(s)...a single whit stripe from my mouth down to my abdomen is good, it just shows that the radiation has passed through my system and not "latched on" anywhere there may be cancer. That is what I expect to see and then I will be left along (well not from blood tests but from scans) for another year.

Orgasmic Calculator!

This is really funny, check it out!

http://www.joke-pages.com/jokes/images/org-calc.swf

Errands and Expenses...

I did plan on getting a lot done today and for the first half or so I did but then I got a call from a good friend in the area and spent the afternoon with him, his wife and baby (who is just the most beautiful shild I have ever seen)...it was nice, we went to a coffee shop and then to a park with a playground...but anyway, on to my errands, etc!

Today was expensive. I had to stock up on a lot of "business items" that all add up. Some exciting, some not so. For example; buying mini dv tapes is damned expensive. We go through dozens of them at a time...I also had to get 9 volt batteries for the electric toys I have as well as AA's...again boring...but it was over $150.00 for what I needed 9and yes I buy in bulk, on line and a place that is cheap!).

Then it was the hunt for condoms! I needed black ones (they're easy to find on ebay) and red ones. Red by itself is not easy to find at all...I generallly have to buy an assorted colors pack but all of the packs I could find on ebay were pastels...ugh! I buy like 100 of each at a time so the red condom hunt began and I did find a place that sells just one color at a time and ordered 50 of them (I use more black than red). So that was around $50 on condoms.

Later I was hunting for medical charts online for the medical set that I use at Rick's (Edge) Studios...it's a cool set but it just needs some dressing, the walls are really bare. The charts were cheap, the expedited shipping was not...so that was another $70 or so and now I still have to hope they arrive on time!

Goodnight!
Chanta

Ugh, Amazon....again!

Seriously, I have said it before and I will say it again: Can Amazon please order enough copies of my book so that they don't always fucking sell out? This is so ridiculous, they have sold out again and yes, they have another order on the way but it is rather small and will sell out too...why don't they just order like 500 copies and be done with it for a while...shit.

Anyone interested in purchasing a copy can from these stores (that have the common sense to keep enough in stock:
http://www.twistedmonk.com
http://www.agentsm.com
http://www.thepleasurechest.com

Take care,
Chanta

I love my job!

So, my phone conversation with Hollie Steven's just now went something like this:

Hollie: "Hello"
Chanta: "hey baby, are you available to be a bitch on Monday?"
Hollie: "Sure, great, I'd love to be your bitch on Monday."
Chanta: "Actually, you'll be Audrey's bitch...but I'll be there directing, she's a very sexual Dom so there'll probably be a lot of strap on fucking..."
Hollie: "Cool, I'm fine with that"
Chanta: "Great, I'll let you know your call time as soon as I have it"

Earlier that morning I recieved an e-mail from another model saying "Hey Chanta, I haven't been your bitch in a while! When will you be coming down to LA again to slap and fuck me?"

Girls love to be my bitches LOL! How perfect is that?

Well.....

I haven't really been writing here again despite the fact there is a lot to share. The last 15 months or so have been very humbling to me...and in some ways I suppose this is good, I never really had empathy for people before and now I do...and a lot of things that used to seem important just don't seem to be after having the big C again...but I do miss that innocence I used to have, that playfulness. I see it in photos of myself from 10, 8, even 4 years ago when I look into my eyes, my eyes seem happy...now they seem...something else, as if I learnt all too early in life that we don't live forever or something.

I received an e-mail from my Dad last week titled "Chanta Rose"...needless to say he never knew my stage name and any e-mail titled that could only be bad. It was typical my Dad in style; cold, cruel, judgemental and attacking the only 2 things he knows how to attack: intelligence and finances (sorry Dad, but I've supported myself for a decade so the latter doesn't work on me...and I can quite easily pay for law school without you should I choose to go). The most annoying thing is that he assumes to know what others think, he even assumes to know what I think (that I must be ashamed of what I do). Dad, how does it feel to be the last to know? How pathetic, that everyone around you is acting as if they didn't know so they do not have to feel your rath. They all knew, the friends, the family, etc...they all knew, a few of them even collected the magazines I was in. And as for me, I am not ashamed of what I do, if I was I would not do it....and you may think I am the scum of the earth (with the cockroaches wasn't it?) but you're a closed-minded fool. I'm sure people that deal heroin to children rank higher than pornographers in your mind. And please, as if you didn't know. You knew about Playboy, you knew about the TV shows on adult channels, you knew about Page 3, about the fact that I tied people up and that I was tied up...so where exactly is the surprise? Is it in the words "Porn Star"?

Of course my father also assumes everyone in the industry is stupid...which is why I fit in right? Dad, I won't argue that there are some people in the biz (and every biz for that fact) that have shit for brains but my friends are all intelligent...the majority have degrees and qualifications that your puny brain would not be able to comprehend (nor mine).

So Dad, this is my reply to you. 10 years ago I put an ocean between us for a reason and I will live where I want to live, married to whom I wish to be married to, doing what I love. My life, not yours...and unlike your other children, you have not had to pay for my love, you have it regardless. I will continue to be close with my brother, I will bring my husband to Australia at some point...and my business, my book, etc. That too will come to Australia also. Your are not immigration, you do not rule Australia as much as your ego may allow you to think you do...and I will not remove Australia from my life or my business to please you.